Whoever said the Christian life was easy, is obviously not fully committed to Christ. Although, I have been a Christian for over 2 decades I still struggle to completely trust God sometimes, especially when I think of all that I went through last year. 2013 was arguably the worst year I have probably ever had as an adult, nothing went right, joy was short lived, more like a yo-yo. But I am believing that this year there will be a turnaround cos I know God cannot let me go through the same thing again but I am still trying to get over 2013 and move on. In other words, I need to change my mind set, let go and let God take complete control. Learn to understand his ways are not my ways, I am going to be honest it is hard, sometimes I do trust God but then when I hear or see something I start questioning him. I know I will get there, how or when I don’t know. I suppose I am writing this to encourage anyone going through the dessert that is, you feel like God is silent that he is ignoring you, etc. We all have to go through the experience in other to appreciate the blessings when they come, I know that in my heart of hearts that Jesus death on the cross was not in vain and that the Holy Spirit (if I totally let go) will guide, encourage and strengthen me to go on. One thing I know for sure is that no matter what life throws at me, I am not going to stop being a follower of Christ, I have come too far to give it all up.
Till my next entry, keep the faith & hang in there.